The Unknown

I do not know where I am right now.

My mind is in multiple places.

The loss of another friend is unbearable and I don't know how long it will be until another one is gone from this world.

I have broken up. I have cut off everyone I was close to and for those who I still talk to, Just know that I have a special place for all of you in my heart.

For those checking up on me, Thank you. It means a lot.

For those listening to me, Thank you. It means a lot.

For those who are by my side, Thank you. It means a lot.

I sleep under the bed sometimes. It's comfortable during a phase like this. The phase that happens every six months or so and stays for almost 2 months.

Cheeku and the people who I still talk to are the ones keeping me sane.

No amount of cigarettes or alcohol will help with what I am going through right now.

I haven't slept in almost a week now. I won't take the pills frequently because they're too addictive.

For the people out there who are reading this, Save yourself from trauma. Identify it when it's growing and cut it off. It's sort of like cancer, Hard to get rid of but with the right treatment, It can be gotten rid of.

This is not the end.

Death

Immortality is the best curse.

Death is inevitable.

Every person in this world will go out the same way they came into this world. Except that, There's a slight difference.

When someone is born, They do not have knowledge of anything happening around them. With time, They gather as much knowledge as they can through books and other different sources. That's the difference we have at the time of death. We come into the world with nothing and we leave without any materialistic things except for the knowledge we've obtained over the years.

Being scared of death is something that's debatable. As a human, I sure am scared of a few things but I've come to terms with death. It is inevitable. We can most probably extend our lifetime with science but that kind of technology hasn't been invented yet. But, In the meantime, Why be scared of something that we'll be facing eventually?

Never live the rest of your life living in fear of what's inevitable. That's just you burdening yourself with things you don't need to. It's unnecessary. Come to terms with death and embrace it when the time comes. Do things that will make you feel like you've accomplished something before you kick the bucket because immortality is a joke.

I've wished to live forever since I was a kid but now I understand why it's not the best option. Immortality is the best curse and it's because you're living long enough to see people you love grow up and become successful. You're seeing the development of the human race. These are the best aspects of being immortal but the negative aspects always outweigh the best aspects when it comes to immortality. The curse that comes with being immortal is to watch everyone you've ever loved die while you live. It will reach the point where you wish you were dead but you realize that it's too late to wish that.