Disorders

Disorder: An illness or condition that disrupts physical or mental functions.

Living with a disorder can be hard. The entire meaning of  "Disorder" means that whatever condition you have is limiting you from reaching your full potential or from doing your daily activities. There are multiple disorders, Some severe while some are not that severe which might not affect your daily routine.

I've had ADHD, Anxiety, Insomnia, And Panic disorder for the past 3 years. The symptoms started showing early during my school days when I wouldn't get enough sleep that someone of my age should be getting. I would become extremely hyper or extremely sluggish at times as well as lose interest in whatever I would be doing at the moment. My hands would start shivering whenever I was outside with a lot of people around me. The worst one of them all was when I could not get myself to concentrate on the work I was doing.

Sometimes it got very bad, Especially during my exams because I would have a lot to study and then would end up losing concentration as my mind would be distracted by something else at the moment. But, I always scraped through somehow. I'd read a single page at least 10 times so that I could understand a tiny part of whatever it was I was reading and then fabricate an answer of my own related to what I've understood during my exam that would make sense to the evaluator.

I did find ways to try and get myself on track but it rarely works. It's like gambling in a casino, You never know when you're going to win or lose. But, Reading and cycling are something that makes me feel good, And they have helped me with my disorders a lot as well. Whenever I'm frustrated, Angry, or sad, I wake up early the next day at around 4:30 in the morning and I go cycling. It helps me calm down immensely and puts me in a good mood for the rest of my day.

Sometimes, I get a lot of mood swings as well. I'll be really calm but then my entire mood shifts to either being angry or frustrated in an instant for no reason, But the good thing is that this happens every once in a while.

Sometimes, It doesn't matter what limits you, The only thing you need to do is push yourself to be the best version of yourself and you will know when you are peaking at what you do best or at life.