Contemplation

Contemplation is a word derived from the Latin script that was first known as contemplari which then went on to become contemplatio and then arrived at its final form that we know as contemplation in today's generation.

What does it actually mean?

Contemplation is "the action of looking thoughtfully at something for a long time" or "the state of being considered or planned".

A few years ago, I found myself in a similar position where I started to think about what life is. I wanted to end everything. I was thinking about killing myself because it just didn't make sense for me to be alive at the time but here I am writing/typing this blog because there will be people who will make you think differently and they walked into my life at the right time because if not for them, I wouldn't be here.

It's funny how life works sometimes. There are ups and downs but what's important is how you deal with them and how other people help you deal with them. Sure, there are people who will brush you off because it's not their problem to deal with. You cannot expect anyone to deal with your shit all the time because they have their own lives to live. But, People who support you through the bad times are worth keeping. There's a difference between dealing with shit and supporting someone through it and I think that it's very important for people to know the difference between them both.

All it takes is a phone call or a text every couple of days to improve someone's mood or to check up on them. It might not be a big deal for people but it sure does mean a lot to the people who are having a difficult time in life. It gives them reassurance that they aren't going through this alone. That there is someone looking out for them.

As a person who used to be suicidal, I'm very grateful for the people who were with me during those times.

I appreciate everyone who called me up just so they'd know I'm doing fine or dragged me out of my house so I could have a good time.

If not for all of you, I wouldn't be here.

They've got a name that they deserve.

Angels on my shoulder.