Saturday, February 24, 2024

The Process

The process of moving on can sometimes be a tough phase to deal with. It's easy for some and for some, it's like taking a walk through hell.

Everyone says it's easy to move on and they tell you to find someone else to date or hook up with. From my experience, It is definitely not easy. It's the hardest thing I've been trying to do but fail every single time. I try to move on by distracting myself from whatever happened but it is not that simple.

The proverb, "Easier said than done" applies here.

People do understand how it is but they never fully get the part where you're trying to detach yourself from the times you spent together, the memories you have, the sleepless nights when you've slept next to them while looking into their eyes and at that moment, you think that this will all work out. You see yourself in the future with them.

It also pisses me off when people tell me that they've been through more than other people have. It absolutely does not work that way. Every single person who's breathing on this planet has shit of their own to deal with. What seems small to the person next to you might be a huge roadblock that you're trying to get across. Sometimes, it's better to tell them that they will get through it with time than to tell them that their problems are nothing compared to the other person.

Sometimes I think about it. When I walk past that person, do I say "Hi" and ask them how they're doing or just walk past as if they were a stranger? This is something to which I don't have the answer yet, but with time, I will.

Until then, I will keep trying to move on and I won't give up until I've taken a whiff of that fresh air.

The air does seem different when you have moved on.

It feels fresh.

Friday, February 16, 2024

A metaphorical slap on the head

 I'd like to begin this by putting out a list of names.

-Chris

-Shounak

-Mohith

-Krishna

These are the names of people who have corrected my mistakes on the spot. These are the people I am grateful for.

Recently, Shounak was telling me about something that made me think as to why I was behaving in that particular way. He made me realize that what I was doing was extremely wrong and that it was ruining my image. It made me realize that I was fucking things up with people without even knowing it but that "slap on the head" was what woke me up.

The entire reason why I mentioned those names in the beginning is because I am here solely because of them. I know for a fact that those people are the ones who truly want me to succeed in life. I know that they will stand by my side whenever I need help or if I'm in trouble. I know that they will "slap me on the head" and tell me that I'm doing the wrong fucking things and correct me on the spot because they know as well as I do that if they don't correct me then and there, I will keep making the same mistake over and over again until my image and reputation is ruined.

I truly don't know how these people have put up with my shit, but I'm truly happy that they're in my life. 

I love you guys.

I Wish

I normally try to keep my blog structured but man, I wish I had what other people have which is love. I have good parents. I make good money...